it’s also so sad that the smallest of choices has potentially ruined my future and im just praying to god every day that this isnt the end

i had decided a long while ago i am going to kill myself if i havent found my way in life by the time im 25 so i had better get working. 4 1/2 years to go

do you ever think back to things you said weeks ago and think oh my god what if they took that the wrong way what if those words ruined absolutely everything and they think im a complete freak now ahahahELP

i want to die

period is here erasing moms worries i was pregnant lol

so so mad at myself

i was looking at this photo of myself and i just remembered how i used to be so self conscious about my “buck teeth” and 90% overbite and imperfect teeth in general…… i felt so bad about smiling in front of people cause i thought people would think it was really ugly but now now i think theyre kind of cute even? ah i dunno ithink theyre cute on other ppl at least 

it feels really good to be overcoming my bdd

thank god for thsi blog so i can let free all my thoughts and not have to worry about looking like a complete psycho in front of 200 ppl :)

i will definitely never forgive myself for this i let another chance pass me by because of my own stupidity and insecurity and i could be far away from here and happy now but god i feel so empty i just

i want to know what it is like again to feel “”“alive”“”

please take me back in time take me back in time take me back in time take me back in time